Edwards New Moon Diary Entry

true i think i need to change this story up lol

This is pretty cool Luna, one thing though, Edward would have used a lot of bigger old fashion words, haha, just a thought...

Title: Edwards new moon Diary Entry
Warning: none
Rating: awsome xD
Genre: entertainment
Main Charactor: bella
Summery (optional):




Dear Journal,
I was taking Bella to her 18th birthday party and something terrible happened. It was somthing that i had always thought of myself to do. But no.... Now I have to make a horrible choice. I told Bella that I was tired of her. How could she believe that? I mean ME tired of HER? She is the best thing that ever happened to a demon like me. An angel who doesn't care that I get closer and closer to puting her life in danger every day. It was so horrible that she believed me. After all those times I had promised that I loved her more than anything else. I would die for that girl and she believed me!
I can't believe it! It feels like my heart has been torn to bits. I wish I could cry. Its not the same. I left her things with her in the floor boards. And with that my heart is sitting, waiting. It is taking everything I have to not go back and beg her to let me stay. I wish she knew how I felt. She claims to love me but she doesn't know that I love her more than anything. I know she loves me more than her own life. But she never seems to get the consept that I am DANGEROUS. Its bad enough I can't say she is safe...
I saw the broken expression and I knew she believed me. That was the worst thing. I let myself slip for a split second and I wonder if she noticed the pain in my eyes, behind the mask. Maybe she WILL go with someone better than a demon like me. I can't always be her protecter. Its been a few months and I don't know why but a boy named Jake, talks to her. Ugh! Even he is not as bad as me. Have you seen his mind?! She went to a movie with him and he remembered the way she was... keeping herself together. I broke her heart. I am trying to remember it is better than breaking her.
I wish she was a vampire so I never had to leave. And I have to power to go down there and.... But no! I love her with all my heart! But its gone now... I wish I could see her for one moment.....


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i have alwayse wanted to see what he thought. If midnight sun doesn't come out I just wanted to see what it would be like in new moon and now I thou;ght you would wonder what was going on in his head...